Photo for thought…

Hello there word pressers !
I'm writing this evening because I need to. Writing today because my anxiety is beating me. After a long day and after finally getting my 8 month baby and 5 year old to sleep I sat down to catch up on my social media, instagram and Facebook feeds… and in my notifications is a sweet message from a friend met up with today who tagged me in some photos she took from an awesome day spent together! With a big smile I click on the album with some anxiety as I know she took some photos of me and photos give me anxiety… well just as I thought… there it was…. exactly the photo I had feared … my heart dropped … I hated most photos of myself but this one… well … brought me to tears. Not in a good way. This one was the worst I have ever seen… at least that's the way I felt at that moment even though there are many I probably felt worse about … I never want to feel like this again. The knots in my stomach, the embarrassment… I am writing these words so I can come back and read them and be reminded of how I feel and how I never want to feel again😓

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