I asked, “Where do you hide? I thought you were gone.”

He replies,

“I watch you here
And I lurk

I watch while you sleep and when your awake
I hide in the corner ready to take

When I see you are weak and starting to break
I slowly take you down low to the bottom
and you easily partake

You barely notice me until my force is already strong
I hold you tight and string you along
But You follow my lead almost every time
I know when to attack
When the timing is all wrong.

So come to me now, just surrender your soul
It will be easy for you and no one has to know.

I need your permission, in order to proceed, come with me now,
It’s you I need.”

I looked up at him and smiled sweetly and said, “Misery, I refuse to give in, I refuse to provide you company and my soul, you will never win.”

My words 🙂
Stay strong in your fight!
Love S.


Zombie Land : Driving in the GTA

So January 2nd. Back to the daily grind. Back to my morning commute, dealing with the never ending blunder of zombies on the road.

Zombie Type #One: The one who graciously waits to read/answer his texts on his cell phone at every stop light. And also takes his sweet time responding to the green light because no one else in the world exists but him-and his phone of course.

Zombie Type #Two: The one talking on his cell phone with the phone in his hand (but not to his ear, it’s on speaker so that makes it better right??- I’m sure he wouldn’t get pulled over for that)

Zombie Type #Three: Oh yes then we have the girl that applies her daily mask piece by piece at every stop light. (I used to be her when I was 18)

Zombie Type #Four: Let us not forget the too scared, face to the wheel, Ima hold as tight as I can because it gives me a false sense of control. (You know the one)

All Others: just put putting away, lost in their mind of the daily thoughts that lurk in their brain… They drive along unaware of their surroundings only their subconscious knowing roughly the amount of space they need to keep between them and the car ahead until the thoughts cloud their brain and the SCREECHHHHH…Almost hit the car ahead … A wake up call…

Then there is me…. The angry driver who is weaving in and out of the Zombies who have been put on the road to specifically irritate me… Who can not see past themselves and oblivious that the world is existing in front of their eyes….

Yes I am she. Riding with the song by Ludacris “Move Bitch”

Tell me about your morning drive ….

The Goals

Okay so here I am. January 1st and ready to commit. The last year I have come a long way. Making changes in my life and proud to say 15lbs lighter 😁

I began following a website called (go one-click on the link – i know this means you may not come back here😂). This team has changed my life. It’s called HIGH INTENSITY INTERVAL TRAINING (HIIT). The trainer that really inspired me is Lisamarie. Please check them out. These workouts are completely free and anyone can do them.

I’ve worked really hard. So here and now I am stating my goals does 2014 health and fitness wise. I want to get in to my healthy BMI range.

I want to lose 50lbs to get there.
And continue to eat better and learn more about nutrition.

I start a 30 day challenge on Jan 15th and expect to lose 8lbs by the end of it. I will update you on my progress and I hope all you readers will all be my cheerleaders 🙂

I am 202lbs today. I will update with my before picture soon 😊

The Ruin

The Ruin

My feelings hurt
Heart is sore
You tore me apart
Burns from the core
Unprotected I arrived
I let down my shield

I let you in
Now time to heal

I knew then what you would do
I knew my heart would be split in two

What I allowed
Is what you did
I knew it was coming
But all worth the sin

To feel what I felt

I will hold it forever
I will never forget
Forget you never

my mind is blown
From the draft you left
But with you
I would do it all over again

My heart is twisted
My love is tainted
But what a beautiful picture we had painted

Thank you

Original written oct 14 by me 🙂

Keep the Momentum Alive…

I think allot of people, including myself, look at this time of year so positively… It’s a great place to be mindfully! The slate becomes clean… You feel like ready, charged and powerful!!!

But what happens? Come January 2nd we say “okay! I’ll start tomorrow!” Then by the time you know it tomorrow never comes. Yes, I speak from experience!

I am going to make this blog my documenting source… Maybe this can help me keep the momentum.

This year I will embark on my journey to continue and intensify my weight lose and fitness journey!

Complete 50% of my todo list of things I would like to accomplish.

2014. Let’s Do This!!!! 🙂

What are your goals!?

I read this today and I love it :

Tomorrow is the first page of a 365 page book. write a good one! Brad paisley – love this

What book will you write? Don’t be shy!

Kony 2012

What is this world coming to? Last week Monday afternoon I finally decided to give 28 minutes of my time to watch this “Kony” video that everyone kept posting about. If you haven’t see it here :

I am absolutely ignorant in regards to wordly matters however in the last year I have definitely tried to be more “informed” and “awake”. So I watch the news and subscibe to various news feeds. Being the completely ignorant person I am after watching the video I was esgaperated by the atrocities going on and that have been going on in Africa which I was totally oblivious to. I felt compelled to share the video immediately on Facebook and Twitter etc. etc…
So the week went on and of course more and more articles start popping up countering/challenging the Kony video… Talking about its simplicity and speaking about the history is deeper than what Kony 2012 portrays. Challenging the group Invisible Children and their intent…accusing them of ill spending…  missing the whole point of the video. It is crystal clear to me what the Invisible Children are trying to do. And I am definitely no scholar or rocket scientist. The video is to make people aware, they want Kony to surrender, and if you WANT to you can donate to this “AWARENESS” group.
I am disappointed in the world. Of course we need a little skeptism to bring us down to reality but seriously… Does it really matter what the history of the country is and all other counter arguments brought to the table because does it make it any different that this man, Joseph Kony, is still running this army of children who kill their parents and use girls for sex slaves. The answer is SIMPLE. NO.

So yes I want to help and get rid of Mr. Kony… that is the bottom line!!!! So all you skeptics and devils advocates (for lack of a better term) pick another topic.  I dont need a run down of history to show how smart or intricate you writing and thoughts may be. Use your intelligence to help the issue 🙂
I read this article yesterday where Jedidiah Jenkins responds to about every challenge I have heard to date! I like his answers because they are clear and direct as the questions. There is no skirting the issues in this interview…. Thats my opinion anyway…
‘There’s a Rabid Hunger to Criticize’: A ‘Kony 2012’ Creator Defends the Film –
What are your thoughts?

Enrico D.

One year ago today I received a phone call from my brother. I was in disbelief because I had just seen him and his friend Eric play soccer the night before. My brother said in a mute tone “my friend Eric died” …. The breath was removed from my body. I immediately became angry because I thought he was joking as my brother likes to do but I thought he was crossing the line with this one… But before I could say anything I heard him crying. A sadness fell over me and cloaked me. I couldnt think or speak. I just surrendered to the tears. The tears lasted for many days.
I didn’t know Eric that well but I felt on the instant of meeting him that he was one in a million. He was sweet and gentle. He was my brothers greatest friend from childhood and that alone made me so sad. They spent almost everyday together. How to deal with losing someone so close to you! And someone so wonderful at that. There is no perfect way.
Eric lived his life by showing people by example that there are wonderful people in this world. Eric’s life taught me to appreciate every moment with those you love. Hang on to and cherish every laugh, every smile and everyday you have with those you love because you never know when our creator will call them to come home. We are here on this earth to enjoy each other, teach each other.
Never lose sight ~ Don’t Blink.

Eric’s favourite song I’m told. How appropriate.

Rest in Peace Erico ~ you are an angel and guide in heaven. You are greatly missed even by those you may never thought you touched.


My prayers and thoughts are with Enrico’s family everyday and especially today. One year later from Enrico’s departure. Xo.

I found the below last year… How beautiful…

“You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that he’ll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all he’s left.

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see him, or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her only that he is gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on”
David Harkins quotes (British Poet and Painter b.1958)