Photo for thought…

Hello there word pressers !
I'm writing this evening because I need to. Writing today because my anxiety is beating me. After a long day and after finally getting my 8 month baby and 5 year old to sleep I sat down to catch up on my social media, instagram and Facebook feeds… and in my notifications is a sweet message from a friend met up with today who tagged me in some photos she took from an awesome day spent together! With a big smile I click on the album with some anxiety as I know she took some photos of me and photos give me anxiety… well just as I thought… there it was…. exactly the photo I had feared … my heart dropped … I hated most photos of myself but this one… well … brought me to tears. Not in a good way. This one was the worst I have ever seen… at least that's the way I felt at that moment even though there are many I probably felt worse about … I never want to feel like this again. The knots in my stomach, the embarrassment… I am writing these words so I can come back and read them and be reminded of how I feel and how I never want to feel again😓


My Reason


I found this on Pinterest last year July and said to myself

This is my reason! This is my ‘why’

Losing weight has been a long challenging journey for me. And the there are many slopes, rocks and road blocks.

But the point is that I am ready. NOW. FINALLY. I am ready to make a very serious change in my life. I want to teach my daughter that anything is possible๐Ÿ˜ƒ … My ultimate reason.



The Goals

Okay so here I am. January 1st and ready to commit. The last year I have come a long way. Making changes in my life and proud to say 15lbs lighter ๐Ÿ˜

I began following a website called (go one-click on the link – i know this means you may not come back here๐Ÿ˜‚). This team has changed my life. It’s called HIGH INTENSITY INTERVAL TRAINING (HIIT). The trainer that really inspired me is Lisamarie. Please check them out. These workouts are completely free and anyone can do them.

I’ve worked really hard. So here and now I am stating my goals does 2014 health and fitness wise. I want to get in to my healthy BMI range.

I want to lose 50lbs to get there.
And continue to eat better and learn more about nutrition.

I start a 30 day challenge on Jan 15th and expect to lose 8lbs by the end of it. I will update you on my progress and I hope all you readers will all be my cheerleaders ๐Ÿ™‚

I am 202lbs today. I will update with my before picture soon ๐Ÿ˜Š